Monday, September 19, 2016

Another missed opportunity

Another weekend has gone by and still no intimacy whatsoever. My wife likes to have her friend's family over all the time and I generally don't have any issue with that. But it does take time away from just the two of us spending quality time together, especially on the weekend. This weekend, however, they went camping and I thought maybe during this reprieve we will get a chance to be close. Unfortunately, nothing of the sort happened. We barely touched each other. I think her period is coming up soon as well so that will definitely limit any sexual encounter for at least 10 days. So it looks like September is going to be just as lonely as August was. Next month is our oldest son's birthday as well as Halloween at the end and so the odds of any intimate or sexual encounter are very low. I start my seasonal work in October and so I won't have as much free time and my schedule will probably be later in the day than my wife's schedule so we will have even less time together. This year is looking like we are going to definitely fall into that "sexless marriage" category of less than 10 times a year. I am really getting tired of dealing with the situation. I don't know what to do. I try to keep my spirits high, as difficult as that is. Staving off feelings of being undesirable and unwanted as best I can.

So a major part of me wants to leave. I have started thinking about how much money I would need to move out and get a place of my own. That would most likely include moving out of state so I would need to take that into account. The first thing I should do is make sure my resume is up to date. I might be able to find a job in one of the larger cities here in California. If that doesn't pan out then I can still use it for finding a job in another city. My family is in Utah and Las Vegas while my friends are in Washington state so I am unsure where I would want to make my move. I have another good friend that said he would keep an eye out for tech work in the Chicago area as well. The further away I move the less often I will see my boys and that is what frightens me about the whole thing. I hope I can figure it all out. 

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